I've been sitting here trying to think of what to write about for my daily blog post, and my mind came up blank. That's when I decided to do something a little more fun than in my first two posts. Here is my list of 5 things I'd like to do before I die. I am going to leave out the typical answers such as "Get a well-paying job" or "Find true love" in favor of answers which are a little more random. Enjoy.

1) Go skydiving. This is something which I absolutely must do before I die. Seriously, if I do nothing else, I had better do this. The appeal of it for me is that it's something that people wouldn't expect someone like me to do. You see, I'm not an impulsive person at all and generally have to think a bit on even the smallest decisions. Going skydiving would allow me to let go for once in my life. If I am ever able to look down from an airplane, feel terrifed at the prospect of jumping, but say "Screw it" and jump anyway, then I will feel invincible. I will feel like I can do anything.

2) Write something I am really, really proud of. I was tempted to say "Write a best-selling novel" for this one, but then I realized that the chances of that happening are slim to none. So I felt that this was the second best thing to that. As someone who has always dreamed of being an author, I would like to write a novel someday and be really, really proud of the result. (Yes, even if it doesn't end up on everyone's (or anyone's) bookshelf).

3) Go to a Linkin Park concert. Linkin Park is my favorite band, so....yeah, kinda self-explanatory.

4) Travel to a different country. I have never been out of the United States in my life, which is kind of a pity considering that the majority of people I know have been to multiple foreign countries. At the top of the list of places I'd want to visit is Australia but, of course, beggars can't be choosers so I'd go basically anywhere.

5) Do something completely crazy. I have no idea what sort of thing would fall under this category but, given the fact that I've lived a somewhat sheltered life, I cannot wait to find out. ;)

So, that's my list. This isn't necessarily the top 5 things I'd want to do before I die, just things that popped into my head. Now assuming anyone actually ever reads this post, I would like to ask that you comment. What is something that you would like to do before you die?

I have decided it is time for me to start a blog, I'm not really sure why but I think it would be nice to have something to write my daily thoughts in, just because I need an outlet for them. I find it is somewhat difficult for me to express my thoughts verbally so a blog would be useful for this reason. I want to use it to write about what is on my mind, whatever is on my mind. I figure it might help me with my writing skills too, something which I could always use improvement on considering I am an English major.

Anyway. I have been feeling somewhat frustrated with my life lately. I have been working on becoming more independent, but it seems there are a gazillion obstacles in my way. Take one issue: getting a job. Now, I want a job for a variety of reasons. I wouldn't have to go to my parents for cash anymore for one thing but, more important than that, I simply want to do something productive with my time. It is summer break right now, I am not taking any classes currently, and while any normal person would enjoy the freedom, I can't say that I am. I feel I need to do something. I feel as though I am just wasting my time away. Not exactly the best feeling.

Here's the thing though: it's like impossible for me to find a job. I apply to jobs quite a bit, but my callback percentage must be something like .000001% with the success I've had getting interviews. In the handful of times I did get an interview, I've been rejected. It's discouraging to say the least. I wonder sometimes if it is impossible for me to get a job. Like, maybe I suck so badly at interviews that there is no hope for me. Sounds silly to think this way, but I can't exactly help it.

If I had to guess why it is so difficult for me to get a job (other than lack of experience), I would say that the biggest hurdle is my seemingly poor social skills. I'm not sure why, but it is difficult for me to seem friendly around people, to have "normal" conversations with them. So, naturally, interviews wouldn't be a cakewalk for someone like this. I'm starting to think I should meet with a career counselor at school and have a mock interview with them. Maybe the counselor could give me some pointers. I'll have to do something; I refuse to just wait for my interview skills to improve.

Well anyway. This entry is getting kind of long and I'm having a hard time believing anyone would find it very interesting. So I will leave off here, perhaps I will expand on some of what I discussed in later entries...